I’ve come to the conclusion, if I’m going to make a change they should too. Everything from his favourite bread, Mayo ( which he piles on everything) to his fave meals. I will still cook his fave dishes just more occasionally. Like today he wanted fried pork chops, rice and gravy, etc. I take xls-medical a lot of the time and I did eat some but small portions. I just caught myself thinking that ALL of us need to start eating healthier. I think it will help me and all of us to change our diets completely. So, next grocery trip, I’m will be making that change. My daughter likes nothing green and the only veggie she will eat is a potato. Things are going to change around here. I know he will drop some lbs quickly as he hates the new bread, light mayo, and the crystal light for water. He hates eating chicken everyday. All he drinks is milk and even that is gonna change to at least 1% Lol. Poor guy, but this needs to be done. I don’t know what came over me, I just got mad and thought about all this.
I’m going to exercise every single day even on Sundays when I said I wouldn’t. I still smoke, even though I did cut down some. I’m done. I always told dd to stay inside so the smoke wont get her sick. I came in earlier today from smoking and she said ” Mama, I don’t want YOU to be sick!” I’m done. Done. I want to cry. I feel like my life is a mess, and only I can fix it. I feel like a terrible mother and wife because I let my depression about all this effect my relationships with them. I’ve known for sometime I’m depressed. I probably need medication, but I don’t want to take any drugs for it. I’ve been that route and it wasn’t good.
I’m finally ready, like really ready to do this. My life and my families quality of life depends on it.
Sorry for rambling